Until now, I’ve done my very best not to pass judgement on Hillary Clinton. And I’m still trying. I really (strain) am. But it’s getting harder every day.

On the one hand, I lurve the idea of a woman in the White House. Is that stupid? I don’t know. And I don’t care. People decide to vote for a candidate for any number of unknown and irrational reasons. That I relish the thought of my sons growing up in a country in which a woman demonstrably can be president hardly seems like the worst one on such a varied list. Plus, everything from this primary season suggests to me that Hillary is highly skilled, incredibly smart, and likely not to destroy the nation. At least not on purpose. And on top of all of that, the misogyny that underlies so much of the anti-Hillary coverage drives me right into her arms.

On the other hand, I believe that the country badly needs change. Now. As I suggested a long time ago — back when this blog was just emerging from the primordial ooze — no matter what Paul Krugman claims, I don’t see Hillary as anything like the change candidate in this race. Why? Because you can’t be for change if you represent stasis. Hillary, I’m afraid, is the very embodiment of Democratic stasis: the same stale cultural debates that I trace back to the Vietnam era; a deep indebtedness to monied interests; and a stake in her husband’s policies — both for better and for worse — as well as, in some cases, those of the seated president. Unless I’m missing something, there’s not much change there.

Still, I’m willing to look beyond all of that. In part, because I’ll support whichever candidate emerges from the Democratic field. And also, because I’ve allowed myself to be persuaded that hardnosed politics is required to win the general election, to beat the Republicans at their game. Their side won’t play nice, the argument goes, so why should ours? That’s true, of course. But it’s not change. Is there a better alternative? Honestly, I have no idea. Or, put more accurately, I know for me but not for you. Make up your own mind. As if you need me to tell you that.

Lately, though, the Clintons have really begun to wear on me. First, it was Hillary playing games with Martin Luther King’s memory. That Sean Wilentz is sticking up for her interpretation only deepens my skepticism about Hillary’s intentions. And not because Wilentz is a bad historian.* But anyone who claims he’s not a proxy for the Clintons** hasn’t been paying attention. Next, it was Bill dragging himself through the muck and then popping back up with an expression of righteous outrage on his face when anyone would dare to question his methods. Finally, we have this: Hillary trying to reinstate the delegates from Michigan and Florida.

Clearly, this is smart politics. It’s beginning to look like the race for delegates might actually matter this time around on the Democratic side. Every delegate might count, in other words. But trying to change the rules after the game has already started is nasty business. It’s sneaky, it’s underhanded, and it reminds me of the current administration. Again, you say, hardball. I say potato or tomato, sure, you’re right. But I don’t have to like it. And I don’t. I want a change.

[Update: Josh Marshall agrees. Which raises another point: most of the "progressive"*** bloggers that I read -- Eric Alterman, Atrios, Hilzoy, Ezra Klein, Kos, Josh Marshall, Melissa McEwan, Matthew Yglesias -- have not taken a firm stand during the primary campaign. All of them have said or seem to be saying something like: we're for anyone with a "D" after their name. But I wonder if this sort of dirty pool will change all that. I suppose we'll see.]

[Update II: I really buried my lede here. The question is in the first update: will behavior like this fracture the Democratic electorate?]

[Update III: Nobody's saying yes -- yet -- though Ezra Klein comes pretty close. But Robert Farley at LG&M is also very annoyed.]

[Update IV: And now Yglesias weighs in, echoing his old boss****, Josh Marshall.]

[Update V: Josh Marshall, clarifying a post that was, I thought, already pretty clear.

* I often disagree with his arguments — rather strongly — but he’s very good.

** Which is fine, of course. But it is what is it is. Or was what it was.

*** These are not scare quotes. Quite the opposite. They’re cuddly quotes.

**** Right? Didn’t Yglesias have one of TPM’s internships. Surely Google knows.